I am tired of being fat. I am tired of being unhealthy. I am tired of not feeling good about my appearance. I am tired of being disgusted in myself after shopping for clothes. I am tired of feeling guilty after scarfing down a cheeseburger and a large soda. I am tired of being uncomfortable when having sex. I am tired of avoiding mirrors in fear of seeing a fat face that I don't recognize. I am tired of starting and failing new diets and exercise plans. Let's just say I am tired of being tired!
I am disappointed in myself...
I am disappointed because I have let food control my life. I am disappointed because I have loss control. I am disappointed because I have not set a good example for my children. I am disappointed that I gave up this past summer after having amazing weight loss results. I am disappointed in myself for being a disappointment!
I am starting this blog because I don't want to be tired and disappointed anymore! I don't want to have to start over yet again. Hopefully documenting my journey to a healthy new me will help me over come some of the obstacles I place in front of myself. I am not doing this for anyone else but myself. I need a place of reflection, a place to plan my path, a place to set my goals, a place to scream, and a place to acknowledge my triumphs. This is that place!
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